sometimes its better to be told that i have a terminal illness

6 visits to the doctor and i am finally referred to the singapore general hospital's accident and emergancy department.

i was outraged when i was told that i have high eye pressure. the doctor mentioned in such a serious tone that for a moment, i thought that my eye will burst one day and stain the hospital bed with my slimy vitreous humor.

yep and also i thought that i must be something big to be sent to the A&E department instead of the general practitioner department. when i reach the hospital i expected be forced on the hospital bed and carted off in a hurried fashion to the closest operation theatre to have my eye pierced to release the high pressure in my eye. i was even expecting be detained at the hospital for like dunno how many months and have friends and family visit me and sob by the side of my bed. i was even thinking of writing my will and last words to my loved ones.

but then CHEY. after like waiting for 3 hours, i was diagnosed with a serious case of conjuctivitis that it blurred my vision. and to congratulate me on getting even more sick given a 5 day mc. 5 + 5 days make 10 days of mcs back to back.

i am the king man to be able to be given 10 days of MCs.

i wished that they would stop scaring me all the time by diagnosing me with different illness. first sore throat, then fever, flu, cough, suspected diabetes, eye infection finally conjunctivitis.

the prospect of death is so vivid at the A&E department. You see people with bleeding hands, old people so weak that they slump over on the wheel chairs, old ladies carted off on hospital beds, people walking around with their salt fluid bag hanger. its so scary that u my think that u might die this very point.
sometimes its better to be told that i had a terminal illness and be admitted to the hospital than to go visit the doctors 6 times and to be told that i had a different illness each time.